Shanna Geezy

Just another confused little American girl… Rambling my way through the thoughts and the days.

Songs & Smells May 25, 2012

Filed under: Friends,Love,music,Past...,Smells — shannageezyro @ 9:56 pm
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I was talking to my walking buddy the other day about how atrocious my memory has gotten. Call it age, whatever you want I just think more years= more to remember. There are things that I do vividly recall. Times and places with people who have come and gone in my life. Often times I’ll hear a song on the radio and it will transport me back to a moment, a little sliver of time that’s associated with the words and verses strung together in a melody. This is why I love music so much. Sometimes they’re good moments, others not so good. Some, like my first kiss and the Tom Petty song  playing at the time are forever entwined. That particular memory is bitter sweet. The recollection of the hope of my first kiss and the knowledge of what the boy did to my heart at a later moment in time (and another song) forever sealed in my mind. Some songs make me recall newer memories, some songs older. Many songs I can remember only from the back seat of a car. My father singing along with all the windows down on the way to an adventure. The happiness I felt even then in a car, singing as loud as I could over the wind and the radio I still feel. That’s why all my cars need sunroofs and loud stereos.

There are also smells that make me remember. The smell of the cold, wet wool sweater my mother wore home on Thursday nights when she worked. The smell of wood, saw dust, and varnish that my Dad brought in from his work. He used to drive in with the Doobie Brothers blaring, his hair in all forms of disarray. Model glue when my brother was younger then beer and Abercrombie cologne accompanied with the bass of Atmosphere and Andre Nickatina when he was older.  Burning oil of a VW bug and Tom Jones  from my very first boyfriend. Cigarettes and Counting Crows remind me of a very dear friend I lost when my world fell apart. The moistness of redwood groves and freshly mowed meadows of  UCSC are forever associated with my discovery of country music. Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros and the lotion they had in the hotel room during my honeymoon will always make me remember the first time someone called me by my married name… That smell and my husbands smile when I know he recognizes it still gives me butterflies.

I don’t know why my mind does this. I try to capture a song and a smell to help me remember the important stuff. It saddens me that I just can’t remember who and why and how anymore at times. I try and try to recall but it seems like if there isn’t a song or a smell the moments are forgotten.

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And they lived… In reality ever after. October 21, 2011

Filed under: Friends,Health,Love,Uncategorized,wish — shannageezyro @ 6:02 pm
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Well it’s a done deal! I apologize that I didn’t blog about our entire wedding process. Things distracted me…. But it was an amazing day and we absolutely loooved how everything turned out. I am so lucky to have and to have joined such a loving, wonderful and talented family. Special thanks to my new SIL (sister-in law) I was so worried about her, being pregnant and sick during the wedding but she made it gorgeous and included like everything we had ever talked about. A bonus is that the photobooth the Hubo built has already been “rented” out twice! Maybe we’ll launch a DIY photobooth business and be able to afford our dream fixer-upper sooner than we thought! So excited to share these gorgeous pics from our new friend Kurt Manley (www.kurtmanley.com). There’s lotsa new stuff going on and I’m hoping to have more time to blog in the future but I’m off to go enjoy newlywed bliss!

 

Coulda, Shoulda, Woulda… July 13, 2011

Filed under: Friends,Love,wish — shannageezyro @ 12:06 am

I’m beating myself up for not documenting all the projects we’ve done and items we’ve procured from flea markets etc. for the wedding and blogging about them.  But like lots of other things wedding related I’m embracing all the good stuff. It’s easy to get stressed and obsessed with the details and forget the important things… Which is ROMANBOWUBBLEARD love. I’m learning to let go and enjoy the process! Plus now we’ve entered what I’m going to call the party phase. Engagement parties, bridal showers, bachelorette and bachelor parties plus a rehearsal dinner! We get to see everyone that we love at so many events and they’re coming all to celebrate us! I think I speak for Josh as well when I say it’s hard to express how grateful we are and how much it means to share this time and make these memories with everyone. We are so lucky!

 

2011 February 28, 2011

Filed under: Friends,Health,Love,Uncategorized — shannageezyro @ 7:49 pm

I’m not sure what to think about this year so far… It started splendidly with a lovely mustache themed 29th birthday.

Then we had the pleasure of making Havana Romanbowubbleard the newest member of our family. He really is a great fit for us. He goes on adventures with Poppa in the Tahoe and loves to cuddle up and keep Momma warm at night.  Josh who admits never actually wanted a dog absolutely loves the “Havanimal”.

Somewhere in mid-January 2011 started taking a turn for the worse. I’ve been sick for allll of February. And while nothing awful has happened to me personally friends and neighbors have had awful and tragic events occur. It makes me grateful for my life and health but at the same time I keep thinking that it has to get better than this. It just can’t keep going this way.

 

 

My Fellow Giants Fans. October 31, 2010

Filed under: Clothes,Friends,Health,Sports — shannageezyro @ 9:55 pm

I remember when I was a little  girl my Uncle Bruce was obsessed with the Giants. He used to take my brother and I to games with our little mitts and we would try to catch foul balls. That was when Jose was the Uribe we were chanting for. I remember the 1989 World Series and the earthquake that all the adults around me were really concerned about. I vividly remember in 2002 being in college and being supremely annoyed that a team from Southern California beat us. Norcal forever! But this year now that the boyf has made me a hardcore spots fan I’m fascinated, and a little inspired that in the midst of all the crap that goes on around us it seems like or little part of the world is unified around this little group of castoffs and misfits that to me seem to be making a little bit of magic. I sincerely hope they win but even if they don’t we should not forget how they made us all friends and fellow fans for these briefs weeks in the fall. There’s lots of people who claim to be original giants fans who slam band wagoners for jumping on the train after we started performing in the post-season… A fan is a fan were all hoping for the same outcome .

Josh and I were lucky enough to attend Game 1 of the NLDS. It was an awesome experience but I have to say sitting in my living room with a group of friends, laughing, screaming, and cheering for at at those boys has been my favorite part of the fall. It’s something I’ll miss when we have a new group of World Series Champions. Here’s a look at my collection of T-shirts celebrating the Giants! Happy Halloween everyone!

 

I am a Preach-a-saurus Rex June 7, 2010

Filed under: Friends,Love,Trouble? — shannageezyro @ 7:24 am

So I’m in a funk… I haven’t been exercising or eating right or any of the “things” my mother tells me I should do to keep me “balanced”. I mean let’s face it it’s soo much easier to come home from work and turn on the RHONY or NJ   any of the 5,000 other trashy reality TV shows I watch and eat whatever I want then it is to cook something sensible and go to the gym for a hour and a half of cardio. Me and cardio, we have a love/hate relationship see while I’m doing it I hate it but after I’m done I love it. My brain is one that needs the endorphins exercise creates to keep if from attacking itself with OCD and tormenting those around me with crabby and selfish outbursts. I know the reason I’m feeling the way I am lately is because I’m not taking care of  good ol’ me.

So this evening the boyf  confessed to be in a funk of his own and I go on and freaking on about what he should be doing and giving him advice atop my high horse. But I my friends and am an ENORMOUS hypocrite!  Why is it so easy to tell people to do the right thing, point it out and rudely inform them of their mistakes while blatantly ignoring your own? I hate the whole “do as I say not as I do” crap…. But I’m a serious offender right now. I guess all I can do is head to the gym tomorrow and defrost some chicken breasts for dinner. I hope he doesn’t see me as a preaching tyrant who won’t help herself but berates him.

 

High School was sooooo 10 years ago… Literally. May 31, 2010

Filed under: Friends,Past...,Trouble? — shannageezyro @ 5:37 am
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On Friday night I went to a lounge/nightclub and I had the pleasure of running into someone I went to high school with… The entire experience was a bit like returning to high school. The guest list and velvet ropes separating you from the lowly peons waiting in line… Allowing you to enter the inner sanctum of “coolness” and consume $300 bottles of Grey Goose. It reminded me of all the parties my brother & his friends used to have.

The boyf and I went for a birthday party for one of my favorite fellow girlfs. (One of Josh’s friend’s fiancée) She is the sweetest and probably one of the only people who could get me to sublimate my hatred for the superficial club scene and actually have some fun. I EVEN DANCED! Briefly and only at the table but still. That’s so rare!

Apparently my presence was uncomfortable for the person I ran into. It totally isn’t me that he should feel awkward with, I am not my brother nor do I talk to any of my X boyfs on a regular basis. I felt really bad the dude was holding onto this stuff from literally 10 years ago that didn’t even really involve me. But then I realized that I am still holding onto stuff from just as long ago….

I went through a really confusing time in my life and I have so many people I lost touch with and let slip away cause I felt awkward… I tried to tell him (the person I ran into) that high school was a decade ago and he should let go of anything that happened cause seriously WHO CARES? But I think I was attempting to give advice I can’t take. I try not to have regrets cause I am the person I am because of the things that I have experienced and I like who I am (most of the time) but I have real shame and embarrassment about losing certain friends and alienating others. Some of the choices that I made were so very impulsive and so very wrong. This is why now I am so very careful, I don’t want to lose anymore, and I truly wish I could get some back.

That being said I have no desire to go back to high school, I think my reunion is coming up this year… SCARY! But I think I understand why some people want to go back. When I was 17 and adults told me “your high school years are the best years of your life” I usually laughed at them. I thought they were crazy. I mean who would say that? But now I get it, I think. We were so lucky, all we had were trivial problems. There were no bills, no jobs, no taxes, no real pressures in life. All we had to do was study and socialize. I understand now what they meant. The problems we had in high school were created by us, by our superficiality and stupidity…. I would cry when I didn’t have the latest and greatest Abercrombie jeans. Obsessed over whether or not the dude I was crushing on looked at me when I passed him in the hall AND my parents paid for everything! I wanted to be sooo cool and exactly like everyone else when I should have just realized I was me. I don’t want to be that person again… but I would love to not have all of the responsibilities and realities of being an adult. I wish I could talk to 17 year old me and reassure myself that it really really doesn’t matter. So my glimpse into the past concludes with a fresher perspective on the future.